When I was asked to write this blog post, I had to stop and think what freedom really meant to me. Freedom is a word that has one true definition, but can be personally defined so differently depending on the situation. What my mom always tells me is that freedom is about who you are, where you’re going, and how you’re going to get there. I’ve realized that the key to that is knowing the truth. That’s what freedom looks like to me. I would say what kept me in bondage for so long always stemmed from insecurities. When I was in middle school to the end of high school, I had some pretty negative words spoken over my life. It came from people that I thought were close to me, people that just didn’t like me, boys, and the list could go on. I let those words dictate my self-worth. I was constantly searching for approval from people, so that I could be accepted. My insecurities led me to self-doubt, destructive relationships, fear, and an overall negative outlook on life. I never felt like I was enough.
I’d like to say that I had this one encounter with God and it changed my whole life and nothing was ever the same, but it didn’t quite go like that.
It was multiple encounters with God. It was moments of me completely breaking down at the altar, in conferences, in my bathroom, just speaking to God as if he were my best friend, building a relationship with him. It was a process. As I spent more time with him, as I dived into the word, I began to believe the promises he has for us, the truth. Notice I chose the word believe and not anything else. Growing up in the church, I’ve heard many of these scriptures before, but I didn’t believe them. To know the truth is to believe it.
In these moments with God, you start to recognize the lies of the devil.
The devil comes only to steal, kill, and destroy. He wants to derail you off your path, but God has promised us so much. You have these revelation moments. I call them “Aha moments”, when everything just seems to click. You start to learn how to fight. In Ephesians 6:12 it says,
“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”
We can’t fight the devil physically; we have to fight spiritually, and to do so we need to know the truth.
I’ve just come to the conclusion that the devil is sneaky and conniving. Seems like a no-brainer right? But for some reason, when we are in bondage we can’t see that. I’ve recently experienced the devil taking the same thing that I’ve been fighting and disguise it as something else. He’s a con artist. But now that I’ve learned how to use the tools that God has given me, I can recognize his schemes and fight.
The thoughts still come, I still feel attacked, but that’s the devil’s job. The difference from past me and present me, is that I now know and believe the truth which better equips me to fight. I call upon scriptures that I’ve highlighted and written in my journal and I combat the lies with the Word of God, because if God is for me, who can be against me?
I can look back and see why the devil was trying to derail me. God has so many great plans for my life. Some he’s even shown me glimpses of in my moments with him. Just like he has great plans for me, he has them for you too! So I just ask that when you’re in your moments where you feel like you will never be free from whatever is holding you captive, remember John 8:32: “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
Makeda is a UCF alumni, a leader at Mainstream Orlando, and the founder of M., a lifestyle blog. M. features posts on fashion, faith and everything in between. You can visit her website here --> makedafarrell.com