Hey lovely ladies! It's been quite a while since we've spoken (almost 2 weeks to be exact), which is crazy! Life has been non-stop.. I started a new job, bought a new car (a gorgeous red 05' Kia Spectra, I'm in love with her already!) In addition to all the exciting new things happening in my life, I've quite honestly took some time off to work on myself. This time last week I was in a low place. Probably the lowest place I've been in years, maybe even my whole life. My life took a drastic turn in a different direction, and the last few weeks, I just haven't been okay. The stresses of a lot of hours at a new job, financial hardship and personal conflicts in some of my day to day relationships seemed too hard to bear and my health, something I've never had major issues with literally began crumbling before my very eyes. I felt attacked and defeated on all sides. I felt abandoned, hurt and confused as if I had no one to turn to, and for a while, I didn't turn to anyone. Not my friends, not my family, I went through this season of internal AND external conflict 100% on my own. You know what I realized through all this? I didn't have to.
I believe hardships are blessings in disguise from God. They suck in the moment, so much. In hindsight, though, we see how crucial that hardship was in the development of who we are as women today. With that said, hardships are often times from God to develop perseverance and stronger faith in us (although some hardships we bring upon ourselves), but they are not created for us to endure in isolation. In the month of March we are focusing all of our blog posts on the aspect of community, how we need community as women to flourish, we need encouragement, and we simply need friendship. Whatever your personality type is, no matter what you say to try to convince yourself that you don't need anyone by your side, WE NEED EACH OTHER. Let me type that out one more time so that I know you're getting this, WE NEED EACH OTHER! This world is so broken, so hurt. Boyfriends break up with us out of the blue, friends betray our trust, parents get divorced 20 years into marriages, cancer is diagnosed with no fore-warning, relatives die, jobs are lost, fathers fail us, life hurts us AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN and it is completely okay to not be okay. It's alright if you're sad, it's okay if you woke up feeling low and insecure, heck, that's how I woke up this morning! BUT, what separates the world changers from the dreamers, is a world changer will reach out in a time of need.
It doesn't make you strong to think you don't need people or advice, it makes you weak.
I can't explain the sense of relief I felt after telling the close people in my life last week that I wasn't doing alright. It doesn't make you needy to ask for prayer or encouragement. You're not weak for going to counseling, or breaking down crying to a friend. You're not less-than for feeling less-than, you're human. I myself am in a season where I am questioning what God is doing in my life right now, the role of importance I play in all my aspects of leadership and lately, it seems my flaws and short-comings have been on display for all to see. It's as if there's a billboard on the Las Vegas strip with the headline "Bianca VanWindt sucks as a person!" You know what? God says otherwise! I know at the end of the day God loves me, God is proud of me, God sees potential in me where others don't, God's plan is to PROSPER and no to DESTROY me. I want you guys to believe that in your own lives! John 16:33 says
"I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on Earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world."
He has OVERCOME the WORLD! Jesus died so that we didn't have to worry! Embrace the freedom and grace God so freely gives us today. Speak that scripture over your own life. TALK to someone if you're not in a good place (spiritually, relationally or just in general), because community is such an important aspect of this journey of faith we are on. And most importantly, wherever you are today, take heart, because He has overcome the world. Be blessed in all that you do, and never forget you are a Daughter of Day! A queen in every sense of the word. I love you guys more than I can put into words, and stay tuned for updates on social media! We'd love to connect with you!
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